I went out last night with my sisters for ladies night. We started the night out at Transit lounge and ended at bougies. I had a great time for many reasons. It was the first time I had a drink in 6 month so I got tipsy pretty fast. It’s going to be a definite repeat though.

I miss going to school which is kinda weird because I hated going when I had to but now I just want to go and sit in the library or walk around campus. I miss that place. I might have to go talk to someone in the Education building so I’ll be making a visit.

I did absolutely nothing today -.- I worked out this morning of course I have to keep my promise in order to get my new NIKE frees in hot pink and plus I want to be in good shape when I go to Mexico in 2 weeks. Other than my work out I did nothing which can be a good thing and a bad thing. Good because I didn’t spend any money cause I didn’t go to the mall for the first time haha and bad because I was a lazy SHIT.

I went to have Starbucks yesterday with a friend from the past which was good. I have been thinking to myself I don’t have that group of girl friends to hang out with and go out with which I really should have. So it was nice to go out and catch up on life and see how she’s doing and hopefully we can do it again sometime.

I’ll come back later for my full update of my day…

Wow its been forever since I’ve written here. Im sitting in my room playing on the computer and remembered I had this blog so I logged on and read back on all my post. UPDATE: I fell in love again and have been in a happy relationship for the past 2 years. Love does happen just when you least expect it to. I still think back on those times and miss them sometimes and smile. But I remember that I learned from those experiences and became a stronger person because of them.

I transfered from MDC to FIU so Im a Golden Panther now and I have about a year left until graduation and get to start teaching. Which I am so excited for, the idea of having my own classroom with 25 students brings a smile to my face. I just finished my last year at Beckham which was bittersweet because I am going to miss the kids but I knew it was time to move on. Im happy now with where i’m at in my life.

Im a HUGE basketball fan now. More like a HUGE HEAT fan. Me and my boyfriend are season ticket holders and have had the best opportunity of attending the home games and the NBA Finals this year. It was a tough loss but I know we’ll come back stronger next year and we will have our time. I have also had the opportunity to meet most of the players and have fallen in love with almost all of them. They all have the biggest heart and care so much for the community. My favorite player by far is Mike Miller. He has the biggest heart and has a way of making you feel so comfortable around him, if I had the chance I would marry that man and have my fairytale EPIC romance (Hey! a girl can dream) He just has a huge heart and plays with his heart which brings a smile to my face… Not to mention he is Sexyy <33 Im counting down the days until the season starts again and I can watch them all work towards the championship they deserve.

Don’t give up on love because it does happen, you just can force it <33

I promise I will start writing in here again. Its good therapy and a great stress reliever

well nothing’s really changed since I last wrote. Schools been hectic juggling 4 classes.  Work’s been the usual funn and crazzy with plenty of laughss, I enjoy going everyday. I’ve been going out a lot on the weekends which is good I guess it keeps my mind going and it’s been crazzy funn. Made two neww friendss who I lovee :))

I’ve been talking to him more latelyy and everything he says makes me fall  in love with him more and more. We talk about the day i’ll be able to move out and not have this problem of not be able to see each other, I just wish that day would come faster. It’s been hard lately. I just wish everyone could understand that he makes me really happy and understand I don’t want anything elsee but to be able to be with him <33

So my new little obsession is postsecret.com I kind of want to send in my secrets.. I find facsination and liberating to be able to tell your deepest secrets to someone you don’t even know and who doesn’t know you. Here are a few of my favorites and some of how I feel… 

        So, I sit in my room  staring at the ceiling wondering to myself why is it that when growing up no one ever warns you about how hard life is going to get. Nobody ever informs you about the excruciating pain and emptiness you’ll feel when you get your heart broken because you fell in love with that boy you never pictured yourself with. Never does it cross your mind when playing outside with your friends or dressing up your dolls  that one day your world around you is going to fall apart because of that one person you let slip out of your life. Not to mention they never told you about all the problems you’ll face and the decisions you’ll make that will tear you apart.  About the things in life that just won’t go the way you always dreamed of…

         One thing you did learn about as a child is that fairytale, where there’s a “Prince Charming” out there for every girl. Every damsel in distress will be saved by their prince on that white horse. Obsessed by the fairytale, we spend our lives searching for a magic door and a lost kingdom of peace.The problem with that is it gives you false hopes about life and just sets you up for disappointment. Why is it that we’re force to imagine this life that most likely will not happen. Millions of people go through their lives never knowing what love is, or never having a “fairytale” romance. We imagine “Happily Ever After” with our prince and a castle, to be honest how many of us actually end up like that. They say all you need is love but honestly is that enough. Can love fix all your problems or does it just lead to heart ache. I know it’s the best feeling in the world being in love with someone, giving them your entire heart and trusting them that they’ll never hurt you. Knowing that when the rest of the world walks out on you he’ll still be there for you, loving each other unconditionally. But is the pain that comes after it worth it?

I’ve just realized that I’m not a princess and this isn’t a fairytale, but I really wish it was. <//3

I’ve had a lot on my mind these past few days. I was put in a situation where I was forced to decide and I made a decision that most likely I’ll end up regretting for the rest of my life, or just wondering “What If”. I should of just told him yes and had a little faith in myself that I can make it and stop being so scared of change. But my problem is that I need someone else to tell me that I can make it, to assure me my decision isn’t the worst in the world and I won’t crash and burn or fail. I don’t have someone to tell me that and now I regret my decision every day. Although I hold on to it with a little hope, I need to be pushed over the edge.

Imagining it now moving in would have been fun and an experience that wouldn’t have been forgotten. <33